I haven't been consistent about blogging like I have wanted to be, had hoped to be. This blog is for me, an outlet. In the beginning I wanted to share about my health and wellness journey but now I think I just want to share. 
  
Seasons...
As we have entered into spring and will soon transition into summer, Seasons have been on my mind alot. I think seasons is a good way to describe points in time in our life. I think of my nursing career. For a season I was an oncology nurse then transitioned into Care Management. For a season I worked for a local hospital 7 minutes from home. Now I am in a new season and beginning my career with a new community hospital 45 minutes from home. Professionally this is a really great season.  

I think in terms of my marriage. We had our dating season, then our early marriage - pre-kids season, now we are in our child rearing season. Within this season, though we are embarking on the beginning of what I fear is going to be a very, very long sub season (is that even a word? Can I just make it up?)! We are the proud parents of 4 energetic, individual, crazy boys. Our 2 oldest are developing their interests in sports and activities. Of course my husband and I have our own activities too (I mean, we need our sanity!). So many many times the family has multiple places to be at once. This has developed into a divide and concur mentality. Depending on the event, location, amount of time etc, we divvy up the kids between us and go our separate ways. In general, it works pretty well. 

However....
  I am struggling feeling connected. There is maybe one night, two if we are lucky, that we can all be home, share a meal and spend some time together. Yet, there is always homework or something that needs discussed, handled or dealt with. Its not just about me and the hubs tho. Its feeling connected to myself, to each of my kids and my family as a whole.. and even my friends! As each of the boys get older, I know this will continue to be a bigger and bigger thing.  We don't over schedule the kids or ourselves. Maybe its selfish but I don't want my husband or I to give up those things that we love that keep us sane! So how do we handle it? What strategies have worked for those of you with more than 2 kids? How do I push down my need for quiet time at home with everyone and embrace this season? I know, I know, I know... I need to enjoy it...it goes so quick.... ! Yes, i agree, but in the moment, the here and now, it FEELS SO SLOW! Like this is how it will always be. I wanted to be a mom. I prayed for these kids. I want to embrace them, connect with them, love them and do my best to be sure they become great men of God. 

I guess no one ever said it would be easy... and I wouldn't want it to be easy....well maybe a little easier! I guess for now I will look for the small moments. The quick points in time to have a moment to connect and maybe I will slowly gain momentum in embracing this (sub) Season (And perhaps start a countdown to empty nest season? I mean we all need goals Right?) 

Thanks for listening...or reading...well you know.. Thanks!